My darling. A year ago, this weekend, we lost you. Because of the leap year, we will lay flowers on your anniversary of passing which is Monday but tonight I can’t stop thinking of you because it was the Saturday morning that I held you in My arms in the garden by the wind chimes. It was warm and sunny. A beautiful day really and although it was naturally your time to pass over to heaven, it was one of the hardest days I’ve had to endure. I love you darling and I’m so sorry for all of the times I should have given you more. You were my baby but when human babies were born, they took time away from you and I’ll always regret that and feel guilty that my time ended up divided. It never ever meant I loved you or Betty less. I loved you as much from this first day we brought you home to the last day I held you. It breaks my heart that I can’t cuddle you anymore. I would do anything to cuddle you both again. The other day I found one of your whiskers on the floor. Shiny, black and perfect. I’m Taking it as a sign you are still with us. You both are with us. I love you darling from the very core of my being. Until we meet again sweetheart- we will meet again, I’m sure if it- remember that you and Betty mean everything to me. Forever a love so innocent and unconditional xxxxx

Today we arrived at our cottage. It’s the first holiday we have had without you both. A song came on which we played a lot the September and October before betty came to join you. I felt so overwhelmed with how much I miss you both. We have the boys now which keep us busy but I miss the easiness of having you with us. I miss the cuddles and I miss your unconditional love. Both of you still mean the world to us both and we will Never stop missing you. It’s nearly a year since we lost you darling boy and neither of us can really come to terms with losing either of you. We think of you both every single day. Xxxx

My sweet boy. I just wrote to your sister to say how much I miss you both. The grief doesn’t get easier. It just becomes something you love with. I light a lantern for you both every night sweetheart and talk to you and think of you every single day. Miss you both my darlings so much. I will never stop loving or missing you xxx